Split and Confused

I thought I already made a promise not to be emo again?

Then why does the gloom and loneliness breach into my mind and heart again?

I promised to let go of the intense pain and the sadness, but no matter what I do, it keeps on coming.

Thank goodness in less than a day, I am again enlightened and up again.

But now, I face another obstable -- how do I convince Mom that what she was telling me is not true? Now I know why she's usually mad at me when she always reminds me to remove some valuable objects and I don't. She doesn't really know the exact details of everything, and now just by after seeing "proof," she tells me not to be naive.

I dare not believe in such an anomaly. The more I won't believe that such a thing may be true.

I am split and confused.